My Journey into Juicing…
As I sit down to write, I have spent the past two days on a journey that has challenged me in a very big way - I was given the opportunity to spend a couple of days on a juice/smoothie fast. The challenge was to juice or blend raw fruits and vegetables for my daily meals and write about the experience. After researching tons of recipes, I decided that the most economical way to do this would be with raw fresh fruits and vegetables and avoid the protein powders, flax seeds and all of the other stuff that I had never even heard of. What I discovered in the research process was that this could be a very expensive way of life. Deciding to go the cheapest route possible, I made a list and sent the husband to the grocery store. I prayed that I would be able to make it for two days. It’s no secret that I suffer from food addiction, so for me, this was a huge undertaking.
When Monday morning rolled around I found myself staring at the blender with frozen blueberries, a banana and some pineapple juice wondering how in the world this stuff was going to hold me over until lunch time. Thinking that by adding a bit of plain non-fat Greek yogurt, the concoction would stick to my ribs; it did not. Since bringing the blender to school would have been a real big distraction in my classroom, I decided to bring the fruits and vegetables in their original form for lunch. I was going to skip having a morning snack and commit to just three “meals” each day. Oh man, was I in for a long, tough day. Snack time came and I found myself surrounded by Cheese Doodles, Pop Tarts (oh how I love Pop Tarts), cheese, crackers, chocolate pudding and an entire ocean’s worth of Goldfish! There I sat with my bottle of water feeling a bit sorry for myself. Lunch time finally arrived and I eagerly dug into my lunch box to satisfy my hunger. My lunch consisted of a banana, an apple, two carrots, two stalks of celery and a handful of grapes. Was I full? Yes. Was I satisfied? Absolutely not. The addiction took over and all I do was obsess over what I wished I could have had.
Dinner time was pretty much the same. The thought of more blended fruits and vegetables made me want to cry. Knowing that my addiction was playing a huge part in all of this, I tried to concentrate on other things and stay out of the kitchen, which is a rather difficult task when there are two other people in the house who have not taken on the challenge and are ready to eat a real dinner. With only one more day to go I headed off to dreamland thinking that Tuesday would be a bit easier; not a chance. Day number two was pretty much a repeat of day number one and I was counting the minutes until it was over.
So what lessons have I learned about juicing? It is hard work; emotionally and physically. I know that I have to find a solution to a healthier way of life but this is not it. I am sure it works for some and while I know that I cannot commit to juicing full time, I believe that substituting one meal a day with juice or a blended smoothie of fruits and vegetables isn’t entirely unreasonable. I was asked by an acquaintance if I felt like I had failed this little test because I struggled so much and wasn’t able to commit to doing it full time. I do not think I failed because this experience has allowed me to look toward getting on track for renewed health and weight loss. My food addiction is overpowering and overwhelming. I continue on in the journey with determination hoping to claim complete victory; until then I continue to battle taking each life struggle one day at a time which for now is all that I can do.