Just for Me
My Secret Life: Waving My Freak Flag at Age 40
All my life I was a good girl. I was a virgin on my wedding night at age 24, and I mean a real virgin not based on some Bill Clinton-esque definition. Even through my college years at a free-loving, big city university my strict religious upbringing played constantly in the back of my mind like a Ricky Martin tune that just won't leave your head.
But something changed at age 40. Two bad marriages later, neither of which were particularly sexually fulfilling, I had my own sexual renaissance. By some counts, two decades too late. Oh well.
I finally got clear that sex didn't make me good or bad. It dawned on me that I didn't have to be the sex-less martyr mom anymore. Especially five years after my divorce. That I deserved pleasure (and pain) and tingling body sensations. I finally tapped into my sexual power and my inner freak at age 40. Has anyone else experienced this?
My kids are older now and spend their summers and most holiday breaks with their dad. During these kid-free periods, my freak flag waves at full mast. And let me tell you, it’s been freakin’ liberating. I don't fake orgasms like I did as a wife. I don't waste my time with small, um, packages-- I don't want to hear that "it’s the motion of the ocean" crap. I'm not particularly fond of cuddling. And breakfast is at my option. Oh and anyone who forewarns that they NEVER go down "south," need not even apply. That's just selfish and a sign of a serious character flaw.
Finding your inner slut at 40 is fabulous and I highly recommend it. The results have been mind-blowing. Literally. Younger men seem to find me irresistible. Don't get me wrong, I'm not at some Samantha Jones status-- sleeping with random strangers, and of course I'm always safe but certain manpanions who may have been previously relegated to lunch date only or dinner date status, can get upgraded to sleepover status during these times.
Or...quickly downgraded to DNA status in my phone. That means Do Not Answer.
My freaky life is still my secret life. But I'm enjoying it all the same.
Now, how will I explain the new mattress and headboard to the kids???