Young, Crazy Love...Remember That?
My sister is getting married this summer and she has honored me by asking me to be her Matron of Honor. So... as one can imagine, we've been having a ton of fun doing some wedding plans together and (just recently) have been having a blast looking for the perfect dresses -- one for her and one for me.
This past weekend, at my mom's house, we spent an afternoon trying on tons of dresses from Ann Taylor for Jane's special day. It was a day that filled her with happiness from head-to-toe because she found her dress! She found the treasure! (And - I did find my dress, too!) As we were winding down from a day of playing true dress up... I happened to peek through some drawers of a dresser that was mine during my childhood. My mother still has it in her house, and the contents of it haven't been touched since... well, at least mid-1990's.
I smiled as I found my very first license.
I laughed out loud as I found old photos of me growing up.
I was very happy to find an old watch that my Nana had given to my one year, long before she passed away.
I got very nostalgic looking through notes and notes and notes from high school between me and my friends. It was funny to see who I had a "crush" on at that time in my life.
But then I came across a true treasure.
Two beautiful letters from June 29, 2001...
... letters that me and my husband wrote to each other the night before we got married.
I couldn't believe I found them, I had figured them long gone and lost from one of our many moves in NYC. My heart skipped a beat as I pulled them out. Ten years has been good to them, they're still pretty much in perfect condition.
Re-reading the letters was like reading a Jane Austen novel. The love and the happiness and the passion we felt for each other on that very night jumped off the page. It was electricfying! It was crazy to read these letters from the future because I literally remember laying on my bed that night at my parents' house writing it to Matt. I couldn't wait for morning to come and I just wanted to wish the night away so I could see him! My dress was beautiful hanging in my room... my veil and heels and something-blue were all there. It was a night of pure anticipation!
I was so happy to have found these letters because I remember that young, crazy, early love. The love that shines above all else. The love when you don't know what the future holds, but the only thing you care about is that you're going into it together.
We still feel that crazy-love...
I still feel the goosebumps go down my back when Matt comes around the corner looking so handsome...
I still smile from ear-to-ear when I hear the door open and I know he's home...
I still know he's my perfect puzzle piece in this world and my most perfect soul mate.
I needed to find those letters.
I needed to feel and remember that young love.
I always say that we need to start a "date night" again. And truthfully, life just gets in the way. There's the kids and school and activities and work and lessons and then practices and then... it's 9PM on a Friday night and all we want to do is sit on the couch and do nothing. But... we need to make the time like we did back in the early days. We need to make sure that we're still making that special time for each other.
I know I've blogged about this before, but... I still haven't done anything about it. I guess that's not-so-good.
I'm framing those letters for us to have and to look at always.
Sometimes all I need is a little push... and a big flashing reminder.
Because that love is more filled with passon NOW than it was 10 years ago... I just want him to always know that.