My Roller-Coaster Ride to Adoption
International adoption is not an easy process. I would best describe it like a roller coaster. There are so many highs and lows. Just when your process is up and you get good news, it seems like the next day you get bad news. As my case worker would say "no news is good news in Guatemala".
Our international adoption process was 14 months long. It started out immediately with many highs and lows. The paperwork and home study process are not for the faint of heart. I was lucky that I had an amazing social worker who guided and prepared us for that part.
After we submitted our dossier (paperwork) to Guatemala in December 2004, we waited. On February 3, 2005 we got our call! A baby boy was born and needed parents to adopt him. We immediately accepted the referral and the official roller coaster ride began!
The wait was terrible…the most miserable and painful time of our lives. As each day passed the only thing that kept me going was the update pictures that we received from our agency each month. However, each update was heart wrenching. Watching him grow and change without me was extremely difficult and painful. As each day passed I dreamed of being a Mommy and holding my little baby boy in my arms forever. I prayed myself to sleep on most nights.
I called my case worker (more often than I should) - just hoping for an update. He would say, "It is always darkest before the dawn" and then divert my attention to something else. At the time that made me furious! I wanted a status update - even though I knew he had nothing to report to me and that our process was truly not in our hands.
The roller coaster ride continued. Highs and lows as Peyton turned 5 months old and we got his update photos, I cried when I saw he had cut his first tooth. It was truly a dark time. I was told the process would take at least another month and I hit rock bottom.
That same night our phone rang and I almost didn't answer, but it was THE CALL with news that our adoption process was complete! It was true, it is always darkest before the dawn. We booked the first flight to Guatemala and on June 27, 2005 our sweet baby boy was placed in our arms forever! The roller coaster ride was over and our process complete.